ANOTHER Untitled...by Speak

When did it become okay to fuck my man just becuz u have feelings for him and then put blame on me becuz I have a "leash" on him.

Why wouldnt I when "women" who think someone whose "committed" deserves THEIR pussy... are roaming around

Why wouldnt u want to make that connection with someone who is actually gonna feel it, someone who deserves ur love becuz hes not out spreading his "love" juices while his "love" is at home

Idk why u think its ok to fuck my man just becuz u have feelings for him but next time ur "feelings" for him are turned on I ask that u continue to not think about me but show some love and respect to urself.....becuz he sure as hell aint

Speak....

Growth

Its so crazy and unbelievable to me that I am writing in this blog right now. If you used to be a reader of my posts you probably already know that I have not posted since May 2010...the year I graduated college.

I titled this post 'Growth' because I have done so much since then. I started this blog while in college, which is where I did some of the most important growing in my life and you witnessed it via this blog. Im not gonna ramble but its weird that I randomly came back to this blog two years after I graduated, two years after I entered into the real world to face nee challenges, steps, phases and a new path of growth . I dont know what brought me back but im ready to continue to this growth with you guys.

TEXT Me

So i have a question because i am a little confused. How is that nowadays guys only text when we are supposed to be "talking'? I was thinking maybe it was something that has come with the new times but either way its still problematic. If you are trying to get to know someone you just met wouldnt u want to call before you text just to hear this new voice that was music to your ears? I guess not...I dont know what the case is but i do know that everything cant be sent via text message, i.e. emotions, sense of humor, & passion and that's why so many things start off misunderstood. Its not that hard to pick up the phone. It actually takes longer to text. They say avoid texting while driving well if u really trying to get to know a woman, avoid texting.

Enjoy, Be Inspired...Speak ♥

Does your Dick Define You?

Lately i have been wanting to ask the men i encounter if their worth is dependent on their dick. I know that sounds harsh but nowadays it seems like "men' only can offer the physical. Don't get me wrong casual sex can be a good thing but when they are trying to pursue a relationship with someone and the only way they can express themselves is by putting it down in the bedroom then there is a problem. So ive been "talking" to this dude for a short time now but based on his questions and answers,it was clear that he didn't just want a fling, but then he starts asking questions like what's your favorite position? Tell me how that counts as a good question to ask anyone, especially if you are trying to get to know them. I'm young yes, so i do want someone who is fun but there is a thin line between spontaneity and humor and disrespect and stupidity. I don't know, it just seems like dudes are either lacking some internal qualities so they have to make up for it with sex OR they are too afraid of something deeper so they stick with what they know.

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Wack!

Wack! Is the only way to describe these "men" i have encountered. I know that i can be a tough cookie but imma need these dudes to grow sum balls. I know this sounds bad but if one more dude tries to holler at me and cant hold a conversation that talks about something else besides how good I look then im gonna scream! If i dont come across a guy that can just say that he wants to fuck my brains out instead of playin this im interested in you game then im gonna scream!(Shoot im horny too,we can have sum casual fun but if ur too scared 2 be forward then ur gonna miss out) If i meet another guy who has too much pride to just say that he wants to spend time w/ me instead of just staring at me all crazy and making awkard convo then im gonna scream! We got 1 life to live, if u afraid to live it then dont look my way.

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I am a Poet...Thank God

I just listened to my own spoken word performance and i cried, laughed, sat still, and shook my head...i was able to tap into emotions again by just listening....i realize now that this is what i was called to do....

http://www.twitvid.com/VUU8E

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Stop Doing the Shit

So i had an epiphany today! While i sat at my computer huffing and puffing and almost breaking down in tears because i had decided to lock my self inside today because 1. i want to avoid people who reminds me of reality and 2. to finish all these tasks that i have constantly put off for no reason at all besides wanting to fail (laziness is u just deciding to fail), I realized that this ...is some bullshit and its shit that I..CREATED.

I know that sometimes you have to go down the same road a few times to really learn and grow from it but when does that cycle stop? I know that i have learned from everything i have went through but that does not mean i can make an excuse for them.

We are human so we will go through breakups and just want to run away. We are human so we will go through times where we will think about giving up. We are human so there will be times when we break down, but because we are human we also have control over so much of it. No we can not control everything that happens but we have CONTROL OVER OUR REACTION TO IT.

I am behind in work and the simplest tasks because i chose to allow it to consume me. I am afraid to see my ex and his new friend and my mom and my friends because they remind me that I AM NOT CONTROLLING MY REACTION....But that ends now...i know its easier said than done but it starts with a change of mind...(and things can ALWAYS be worse so im done w/ this self-pity)

Forgive many things in others; nothing in yourself. If i keep forgiving myself for the same mistakes how do i expect to stop doing the shit

Enjoy, Be inspired, SPEAK